Who Does He Say You Are?

I can tell you I am a super work in progress, that at almost 30 I am just finding out who I really am. Seriously, its taken me this long to stand up for what I believe, to be happy in my own skin and to accept that not everyone will like me. I know there is still more of who I am and I will only keep discovering it as I stay close to God. Life is about growth, its about owning who you are in every aspect of your life and knowing that God already loves you as you are and has a plan for you. Build that God confidence.

Hi I’m Yesenia and I am a Christian. How many times do we down play our faith? For fear that we might be perceived as close minded. For fear of being judged. Trust me, when your an open Christian, you basically say ” Judge everything I do and I say because I can’t be allowed grace.” Friends,I used to try to explain my faith all the time, that it was not a religion but a relationship. When In fact I don’t have to explain myself to anyone. I am a follower of Christ and instead of explaining to you what that means I will just have to show you with the way I love God, myself and others. “By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another. “John 13:35

Along with standing up for what I believe, being happy in my own skin has been such a victory for me. I think this one is really important because at times we are trying to put on someone else’s. Do you see how gross that sounds? Putting on someone else’s skin, ewww. And that’s the way you and I should see it when trying to be someone other than ourselves. Just remember her beauty does not take away from yours, her achievements do not diminish yours. To compete and compare is to devalue who you are and your abilities. God only made one you.”I am fearfully and wonderfully made” Psalm 139:14.

The last thing I want to leave you with is that I’ve learned that not everybody will like me or you and that’s okay. Not every body likes butter cream frosting and its delicious, right out of the container, just spoonful’s of it in my mouth. I had a co worker tell me once that I was annoying to him because I always came in to work with a smile. Then I had a boss not like me because she thought my life was easy. Others hate on me because I’m skinny. Do you see my point?. There is only one you should be worried about,God. And last I heard He gave his life for you and for me because of His great love. So, stop trying to make everybody like you. NOT GONNA HAPPEN!!!

So, if your trying to figure out who you are, look no further than your creator. Everyone thought David was just a shepherd but God saw a King. Everyone thought Joseph was just a little brother, but God saw a second in command for Egypt in time of famine. Everyone thought Esther was just another Hebrew girl but God saw a Queen. Moses thought he was just a step child but God saw the man He could use to set His people free! My goodness friend, you need to figure out who you are and uncover your potential.  And so I say ,you are not who others say you are, you are who HE says you are!




“People are that Treasure”

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6:19-21

I always read this verse and thought to myself ” what does this mean?” What treasures is He speaking of? I was a bit confused because in Heaven we will lack nothing. All our earthly treasures are not needed. I went online to check this out and I saw that many people were saying that we are God’s treasure we are His jewels. I did not however see it connected to this verse in Matthew. I believe that’s the piece we are missing.

Dare I say that this verse is actually talking about telling others about salvation and they are who we should be thinking about when it says store up for yourselves treasures in heaven?People are the jewels here! I know we don’t own other people and I don’t think this means we are owning those people in heaven I believe it is referring to people being our treasures, being of value to us. That people are so priceless to God that those are the kinds of treasures that should be in heaven. Those are the jewels that we should have our hearts set on.

I began to search and found that in Malachi 3:16-17 of the NKJV version He says “On that day I make them My jewels.” Excuse me, did I read correctly, yes God is saying this. Then in Zechariah 9:16 it reads that we will be like shining jewels on the land. Then in Exodus we are called treasured possessions. In Deuteronomy we are referred to as “treasured possessions” a couple more times. Friends, stay with me here. If I asked you where is Gods heart” You would say with humanity, that all be saved and none perish. The purpose of a believer is to spread the gospel so that more can be saved and live eternally where our soul will not perish.

Let me take another leap here and tell you that when the sun enters the stone or jewel in this case do they not emanate a beautiful sparkle? Don’t they shine so bright! And get this each stone will shine differently. So if we are a jewel and we have the son within, will we not shine for all the land to see? I don’t know about you but I truly believe that people are the treasures we should be looking to store in Heaven.

God’s heart is for all humanity to be saved. He calls us jewels, he calls us to shine like jewels. We are the Kings treasured possessions, if we have the Fathers hearts is that not where our hearts should also be? Is that not the last question that Jesus poses?



Will You Still Follow?

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Jesus answered, “Very truly I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw the signs I performed but because you ate the loaves and had your fill. John 6:26

What if you found out today that God is all out of miracles? What would you do? Would you still follow Him based on the sole fact that he gave His life to save you? Would you follow Him based on His love for you?

In the verse quoted Jesus is flat out telling these people that they are only following Him because He fed them not because they believed. Once He begins to be real in what it means to follow, all the thousands disperse only leaving the 12.

I recently went through some self examination where I asked my self that question, “Would I still follow?” Even if God does not bless me with a pregnancy? Even if I don’t get my dream job? Even if who I loved left me? If all these things happen would I still worship and believe? Yes, because my soul would cry out His praises in silence.He spoke and literally life began. He is the beginning and the end. He is the way, the truth and the light. He commands the oceans, the wind. So, how could I not?

How sad would it be if I just followed Him for what He could give me? How sad would it be if the reason I raised my hands was not for worship but just because I want to receive. What kind of life would that be?

The above verse is then followed by Jesus asking the 12 if they would be abandoning Him as well. To this Peter answers, “We have left all we had to follow you.” And just like Peter I want to answer Jesus with ” I have left everything at your feet to do as you will, as I follow you.” So now I want to put you on the spot and ask you the same question. Would you still follow Him if he had nothing else to offer other than salvation and love? Do you follow the man for who He is or for what He can give?

No Make up No Problem

1 Peter 3:3-4 New International Version (NIV)
3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.

This week was a gentle lesson. Not one that flipped my world upside down but one that made me examine my heart and what I truly believe and post about. I had the flu since Friday and it was a strong. I don’t think I have ever gotten it the way I did. My body ached, I was running a fever, for some reason my eyes were swollen and because I also had a cough I was not getting any good sleep. I felt horrible! So because of this I kept rubbing my eyes, blowing my nose, touching face and make up was not an option. For me its doing my eyebrows, eyeshadow mascara and some blush. My routine its that simple, but it makes a difference to my outward appearance.

It was weird that I was a bit hesitant about not wearing make up to work. Why did it even matter? I mean it was just work. As the week progressed I knew why I had been hesitant because of the way others would see me. I listed below the comments I received during my no make up weeeknand what my thoughts were at the moment. I don’t think the comments came from a place of negativity but of observation.

“You look sick”-Which I was. “You don’t look like yourself”-I think I looked the most like myself since I was all natural. “You look weird”-I actually don’t have a comment for this one.lol. “You look older”-Cool, because I am turning 30. “You look pale”- Yep I did.”What’s wrong with you”-Um I don’t know my body is fighting a virus so maybe its that.

While you may think these were negative in nature I totally do not see them that way. People were just telling me what they were observing, not a big deal. I do think though that they affected me in some way because by Wednesday I was asking myself ” Am I not pretty, if I am not wearing make up or doing my hair, I mean I think I’m pretty?” Woah, insecurities coming on. Excuse me, does not beauty come from within, is what I kept hearing inside myself. I was definitely confused for a second. And side note I sounded so vain asking myself “am I not pretty” but in light of keeping honest I want to tell you that was an actual thought in my head.

How easily do we let the comments of others determine our beauty, determine our look determine how we feel about ourselves. How easily we let things as superficial as make up or clothes determine whether we are beautiful or not. How can we base our confidence on things that fade with time? As the week progressed  though it made me dig deeper into what God spoke about beauty. God does not see beauty as something outward but something that is inward. God sees beauty through your heart.

I think the one piece of scripture that spoke to me the most this week is the one I quoted In the beginning because it speaks exactly to what I was attributing my beauty towards that week. I am usually confident but for some reason or another I doubted that my beauty was within and that was a heart check moment.

Want to know something cool though? The whole week I had my co workers ask me every day how I was doing. Laughing when I made jokes and really caring for my well being. Even my husband was such a rock star telling me how beautiful he thought I was as I blew my nose on the couch making elephant noises onto the tissue. All these things all this love I was receiving was not coming from what I looked like but for who I was.

Don’t get it twisted though I believe women should work on their outside as well. Keeping fit because the body God gave us is ours to take care of until we get new bodies. Putting on some make up because why not accentuate your good looks. Wearing cute clothes on a date with the Hubs because he is a visual creation. All these things just add on to your beauty they don’t take away what true beauty is.

True beauty does not fade with time. True beauty is not a counterfeit of someone else’s. True beauty is not the brand of clothe you wear.True beauty is non tangible. So I say to you with confidence “No make up No Problem.”




“Worry into Worship”

Have you heard the song ” So Will I” by Hillsong Worship? That song has been my inspiration in this season of waiting.

Waiting is not one of my strengths. At this moment with our fast internet, our get it now mentality waiting is something of a lost art. I loose sleep over the things that I keep waiting for. I try to figure out ways to make them happen and I tire myself out. In the background I hear God saying that in time it will come.

I keep asking God when, I keep asking God how. I exhaust myself trying to figure it out. How can I have faith when I cannot see it coming in the distance? How can I have faith when I don’t see the wheels turning or the wind changing? Then I find the song ” So will I” while searching for another song. I play it all week because I feel there is message for me there. Then my friend sends me a link and asks if I had heard this song, and guess what song it is, yep that same song I been playing for about a week on repeat. So now I really need to listen. It took me about two weeks to quiet my soul and ask and seek what I was being told.

If you know me there is no surprise that one of my favorite things is worship. I love singing to God and getting to connect with him through song. At times I don’t know what to pray but I know singing will get my point across. God knows us intimately and cares so much that to get His point across to his hard headed daughter he used worship.So everyday on my way to work and on my way home I played that song. Endlessly I played that song. I focused on the lyrics and what it brought to my heart when I listened to it.

It speaks about the mass greatness of God as a creator. He has no point of reference, He is the ancient one. He spoke everything into existence. How big is our God that He created galaxies! All of creation worships Him. The stars by shinning, the sun by rising, the animals by just doing what they were created to do are in worship. There It was!

His message to me was simple but yet so deep.

“Yesenia I am so big, I spoke the galaxies into existence do you not think I have this covered? Yesenia I made all creation and all of it worships me, it worships me all the time without ceasing. Yesenia, truly leave it in my hands and just worship me. That is all you have to do, worship. You have done your part in what you are waiting for now just sit there in peace and worship me. I love you I created you and everything around you. Turn that worry into worship because when you worship you are elevating me above your problems. You are elevating me above the things that are getting in the way.”

That was the message. So friends I ask you to do one thing, replace my name with your name and hear the Father tell you this today. I will say it again “Turn that worry into worship.”




“You Better Recognize”

You better recognize what a big sinner you are because once you do you will be able to love much. It is said that God favors the humble but resists the proud and so it is with the Pharisee and the Sinful Woman who anoints Jesus in Luke chapter 7 verses 36-50.

Its basically a story about a Pharisee ,a Jewish person who strictly follows the written law, and a sinful women who does the unthinkable.What you need to understand is that Pharisees thought themselves better than others. Instead of having a relationship with God and be driven by love they followed rules and regulations thinking that their works gave them right standing with God.   The woman on the other hand was a sinner in need of a Savior by the name of Jesus Christ. You can see that we are at two ends of the Spectrum here.

This  Pharisee who invites Jesus to his home treats him disrespectfully and pays him no attention but this woman who was considered sinful and was not even invited washed, kissed and poured perfume on his feet. The Pharisee did not see himself as a sinner needing forgiveness, grace or love. Yet this woman knew she needed forgiveness, needed grace and most definitely needed love. So she humbles herself and serves the Father while the prideful Pharisee does nothing.

Before this woman leaves Jesus makes two bold statements  “Your sins are forgiven” and “Your faith has saved you.” This is exactly what happens when you are saved. You come to the Father, acknowledge that you are a sinner in need of a Savior and you have faith that you receive forgiveness of your sins through Jesus. This is a story of Salvation. After you are saved you see that it was love that saved you and you know that it is not by works but by faith that you are saved. You are filled with thankfulness and you love much because much has been forgiven.

The ministry of Jesus was about people . He gave himself daily to the multitudes to the disciples and to those who needed healing. The works done by Jesus came from a place of love and every work He did was for others and not for himself. At times he even broke some rules to make a point that it was not regulations that gave you right standing with God but love for the Father. May we know that we have been forgiven much so that our love will be much.







I am not going to Church, I am sleeping In

I really thought about writing this for a while but was scared too. I was scared to be judged by my one reader or my zero reader. But I decided that I must write this. Not for me but maybe for that one person who is struggling with this at the moment. Or I might be lying and this actually is for me.

My relationship with God is a beautiful one in progress. I tell Him everything, my struggles, my pain, my motives you name it. I also listen to Him through His word. Don’t think I am walking around listening to voices and talking to myself and thinking that it’s God. I read my bible and study His ways.  I am not going to a physical church but I am keeping in the word. I am telling others about Jesus, I am listening to Sermons online and talking to other believers. The reason I stopped going is because it began to feel disingenuous. The people were not the problem and I am not disillusioned with the church either. I just didn’t want to go anymore and that does not make me a bad person.

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At this moment in my life I just need to be with God on my own. Have my own thoughts with Him and of Him. I want to be able to have church in me. To be the church and proclaim His love. I love those people who wake up every Sunday and go to church to hear the Pastor. I love those who are serving and greet you with a smile as you enter the sanctuary. But for the moment I want to be at His feet. I want to be me with Him and experience Him and for me this is what I needed.

Before anyone tells me that I need to be with other believers, trust me, I know, and I am keeping in touch. I have someone to hold me accountable as we should always and people I ask for prayer when I’m in need. I have people that I pray for and people that I encourage. I just needed to figure out who I was in Christ without the rituals I had made for myself or the things that I needed to do to look like a Christian. I do love Church, the building, but at this moment in my life that is not where I am at. I will return one day when God shows me it is time and I am ready. I want to be genuine about my presence.

I am not saying don’t go to church but what I am saying is stop making God a mundane thing. He is more complex than that, He is in everything. He is more than just a Sunday sermon, more than just a bible study once a week, He is more than anything we could imagine. So for now, I do not go to a building, not because I think It is wrong but because I want to do church with my family and friends and strangers. And if I am wrong He will guide me back, no worries. I love Jesus and just because I am not physically going to a church and I am sleeping in it does not mean I don’t love Him.